i realli have enuf!!! wat enuf is enuf!!!! i hate it!!! so wat if u are my mum!!! do u have de right 2 take away all my freedoM!!! u have no rite!!! hey i am nt a 13 yr old sec1 kiddo!!! damn it!!! i am going 18...!!! yesh 18!!! even ppl @ 18 can have their say!!! why cant i!!! i am juz like a bird tat u have locked inside a fucking idiotic cage!!! damn u!! i hate u!!! i am totally pissed off by u!!! get ur hands off my businEsS!!! wat u expect me 2 do during holiday whereby i cant work fer long coz sch is opening soon!!! u think tat i dunwan 2 work izzit!!! mind u!!! think!!! use ur bloody head n think!!! who will wan 2 employ a poly student whereby she cant work fer more den a mth!!! hey!!! ur brain is spoilt izzit!?! n wat u expect me 2 study when i have already completed my 6modules fer sem 1.. n i have totally damn shitty no idea wat i am going 2 study fer de next sem!!! u moron!!! cant u use ur heaD!!! i realli have enuf.. whoever reading... i dun care!!! this is my blog.. de it u like it or nt de language i am using.. i simply DUN CARE!!! dun cum n lecture me!! i hate it!!! i have enuf..!!! put urself in my shoe!!! wat will u do!! simply getting as frustrated as me!! hello!! i am 18!!! i am already a grownup!!! wat u wan!!! snatching away all my freedom n want me 2 stay at hme n be like a goodie good gaL!!! no way!!! i am nt a goodie good gal!!! i have my thinking i have my rightS!!! if nt..!! fer wat we have HUMAN RIGHTS!!! u mean i cant even have a human riGHT!! when i am actually a REAL HUMAN!!! get off my life!!! i hate wat u do!! being nice 2 me when u need me n push me to 1 stupid corner when u dun need me!!! heLLO!!!!!! yesh i noe.. u are my mum!!! u have de rights over me!!! but why cant u juz listen 2 me!! think fer me!!! hello!!! u wan me stay at hme EVERYDAY n totally cut off my contacts with de outside worLd!!! if tats the case den!!! juz KILL ME!!! i rather be dead den kept inside a fucking boring home!! whereby i gt nthing 2 do n juz surf net like i have nv surf b4..!!! u think i love sitting in front of this damn idiotic machine whereby it cant speak at all n cant even listen 2 wat i wanna say!! NO WAY!!! it is tat i have realli nth 2 do!!! ok.. den ask me do hsework!!.. i done it.. n u complain!! say i do it with an unwilling heart!!! hey!!! wat can i do.. u ask me 2 do it.. ok i do.. i do le... den u jolly well keep ur big mouth SHUT!!! yesh!! SHUT!!! be it de things tat i do, speak, de place i go, de frenz i made, de things i use, de things i wear, things i bought or even de clothes i WEAR!!! hello!! am i ur puppet or WaT!!! be it de sports, the instrument i play..!!! u oso wanna chap!!!wat de hell!.. be it de type of hairstyle, haircolour, things i eat,drink... u oso wanna put ur hands in mess it uP!!! hey!! wats wrong with u.. u think u gt nth better 2 do issit!! hey!! den go n settle all ur stuffs @ ur workplacE!! dun bring it back hme!! i have never bring any problems tat i have wid my frenz, ccas, studies back hme n start venting my anger @ u okaY!!! u are an adult.. pleasE!! use ur brain!! noe wat is rite n wat is wrong.... yesh maybe @ times.. yesh i will give orr bin... why... coz i realli cannot take it already.. i may be strong on de outside.. but i am realli a veri weak person.. i cant control my tears.. i dun wan 2 cry in front of ppl.. i hate it..i realli try my veri best n please u in everyting already... why cant u juz see my heart..!!! u think i enjoy typing all these shit things in my blog.. NO!!!! i hate it.. u think i wan ppl 2 noe wat is happening 2 me!... NO!! but i realli have enuf...
i can be so sure 2 tell u tat it is onli thru here ppl realli noe that i have been so unhappy so sadist so frustrated... no 1... realli no 1... other den those who have always been by my side.. onli they noe wat realli happen 2 me.. i am still in this world because of them... if nt because of them.. i would have long ago be gone n u will have 2 visit me not here @ http://act_cute_ping.blogspot.com but @ the garden of rememberance... realli.. i have been putting a strong side in front of a lot of ppl... sorry if u think tat i have nt been real.. but i realli dun wan ani1 2 be worry fer me.. i hate de pt when ppl start asking me.. hey u ok anot... coz it will realli makes my tears 2 start rolling dwn... pls.. thankz all fer always giving my those invisible support by toking 2 me... comforting me whenever i need it... thanks..
realli thankz.. ppl like Xiuli, Yuxing, Dre, Engine, Shona, Taifong, Jiewei, Ah heng, Harrison, Hanee, HuiRu, Huiling, Eileen n lots of others... realli thanks u ppl giving me support n even those small things tat u all have said 2 me... yesh i remember them all.. realli.. even though it may juz be a small tag.. i will be so grateful tat at least u all care fer me this fren.. realli... i realli love u all lots..!! thankz... even though sumtimes i may be unreasonable.. even times i will be so nt sensitive 2 hw u all are feeling when i say sumtings... even when times i am rude 2 u all.. even times when i began 2 be bad in my attitude... pls... i realli wish tat u all will pt it out 2 me.. i dun wanna 2 continue 2 be tat rebelious in stuffs tat i do.. i am be naggy sumtimes... but err.. this i realli oso duno hw..
aniway.. wanna apologise 2 ppl readin my blog regulary... realli sorry 2 let u all read such lengthy posts these few days.. sorry 2 let u all read this post... a post which is so crude n rude.. realli wanna 2 apologise.. sorry..thanks fer ur understanding...
*i wanna get out of this tat i am facing nw.. i wanna back wat i have lost... i wanna be de old usual cheerful 1...i wanna be de 1 tat will nt let all my frenz down...*
*can i be de 1 u call everynite b4 ur slp...*
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